Never Knew Me

Posted by Terrence Johnson

Like a chameleon I blend into the background
Present but not seen
May recognize my face
Never my name
The spotlight I avoided
Attention I fled
Invisible
Thought that the background was safer
Being visible takes effort
Forces me to be vulnerable
Which frightens me from change
My content angers me
Yet I continue the cycle of control
I blame others for my reclusiveness
Transferring my insecurities on them
Living a life that does not include me
Each day a repeat of the last
Can't blame others for my fears
Doesn't matter that others didn't know me
I never knew me
Never tried
Didn't think I was important enough to know
I didn't think I was important
There's so much about me I don't know